there is nothing that compares to bringing life into the world and watching it grow I'm sort of relearning the world with him I think I'm pretty tuned into him I he's really good at communicating when he's happier he's not or he needs something he started as a really mild mannered happy sleepy baby didn't have a problem latching or anything he started fussing a lot more and I used to call it Zambia where like he started sucking on my chest or my face that was when I could tell he was hungrier than I thought he should be he needed more nutrition than he was coming from me that was when we tried supplementing and he went right back to being happy and warm and cuddly it was great for him it was great for me my husband could feed him that was really important to him to be able to also have that experience with him so so what I would say to my former self is just relax he's going to let you know what he needs and just listen to him and listen to yourself all that matters is the baby is healthy and he's happy it's a miracle having a kid and just enjoy it and relax and might go forward love